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ferret15
05-23-2009, 06:08 PM
lol, i'm sorry, just read the description.

but seriously, i remember i used to have nightmares when i was young. Like flipping scary nightmares.

step1: recognize that you are having the dream and tell your self that you want to remember your dream and this will help your sub-conscious to remember. when in R.E.M. Sleep you don't remember unless you wake up during this not after.

step2: when you recognize that you are dreaming start to become part of the dream no matter how flipping scary it it. you will wake up if its too much. So basically you will be watching your dream as if it was a movie.

step3: lucid dreaming, while dreaming recognize that this is a dream and not only that but this is your dream! From here you can deal with whatever you need to deal with on a more conscious level.

step4: enjoy your peace of sleep and if you find your self successful, don't try it for fun. I don't dream as often because i can't enjoy it even it was a good dream.

paintballkid0206
05-23-2009, 06:16 PM
but she cant remember anything.

ferret15
05-23-2009, 06:21 PM
first step is to begin to know, if she accepts the fact that she is moving around, she must begin to wonder why? when that happens she may begin to remember her dreams.

If she isn't too violent, just wake her up. and tell her to describe her dream. odds are she may be in R.E.M. sleep.

paintballkid0206
05-23-2009, 06:23 PM
i can't do ANYTHING to help, we live miles, (2 hours) away... thats what kills me.

bigred76
05-23-2009, 07:07 PM
Have the boyfriend notify the doctors. They'll figure it out.

paintballkid0206
05-24-2009, 05:27 AM
the doctors know about it. quoted from a text from her boyfriend: "yes, they know, but they dont know what to do because when she wakes up she doesn't remember it"

buffblackbird2002
05-24-2009, 07:35 AM
yeah my wife remembers them. thats the thing that is different. they gave her some meds but i cant recall the name.

well for the flame thread

i had to cut my hair today, only bad thing about gettin back in.

pntballer5634
05-24-2009, 07:38 AM
excuse me for asking but, was the surgery on the brain?
if so, it could have something to do with it

paintballkid0206
05-24-2009, 08:15 AM
yes, it was brain surgery... im pretty sure that has something to do with it. im sorta hoping its just a brief post-surgery 'trauma' sorta thing..

and... i culd barely get to sleep last night. i was still in 'paintball mode' so i would unconciously replay games in my head, i would start to doze off, and i get hit/almost get hit and i flinch (unconcoiusly) and i woke up again. that went on for prolly 15 minutes last night before i finally fell asleep.

slim and shady
05-24-2009, 11:36 AM
Have to go to BBQ at 5 some people there I dont care for at all.

TheDarkShadow
05-25-2009, 04:14 PM
ugh Finals

slim and shady
05-25-2009, 04:59 PM
Work really sucked today.

bamf-hacker
05-25-2009, 05:56 PM
car accident in your brand new car... Nuff said.

xsvly-fat
05-25-2009, 05:59 PM
That's really not good. How'd it happen?

buffblackbird2002
05-26-2009, 04:56 AM
good part....went swimming yesterday, bad part.....tried getting water out of my ears, now i cant hear out of my right ear and it hurts. i hope i didnt screw something up

marvin-martian
05-26-2009, 07:43 AM
car accident in your brand new car... Nuff said.

you seem alright. hows the CC? repairable?

DFSniper
05-26-2009, 01:13 PM
dan, that was a nasty first scratch! but hey, it could've been worse.

i feel ya though. dropped my car off at the shop today to undergo some beautification of its own.

ferret15
05-26-2009, 02:59 PM
just spilled a crap load of soda on my laptop:(

DFSniper
05-26-2009, 04:59 PM
ugh. i gotta get out. away. gtfo... not sure how much longer i can take it.

slim and shady
05-26-2009, 06:03 PM
^whats goin on DF?

This is going to be a bad work week things are going so slow with so much to do.

paintballkid0206
05-26-2009, 07:45 PM
got back from regionals for track, jumped 16 feet in longjump (terrible), and did bad in 300 hurdles. Sang with friends the whole ride back (fun), but my throat is killing me. Sick of stress

DFSniper
05-26-2009, 07:54 PM
^whats goin on DF?

This is going to be a bad work week things are going so slow with so much to do.

work, parents, work, parents.

just got a call from my friend though, theyre looking at a few places on thursday, so she'll let me know then when i can expect to move out.

xsvly-fat
05-27-2009, 07:13 PM
Went to play paintball yesterday and the field was supposed to open at one but instead they screwed up the website and it really opened at three so me and my friend had to kill two extra hours then we were the only ones at the field all day and I blew about $150... Then my A-Bomb's velocity wasn't adjusting above 170 fps so I had to play with either that or my Pilot all day. Not to metion I was playing really crappy. It wasn't very fun.

slim and shady
05-28-2009, 05:20 PM
Still 3 more days before I paintball again..........Getting withdrawls!

DFSniper
05-28-2009, 06:07 PM
bean burritos... need i say more?


hopefully going saturday. if my car is back and my knee doesnt hurt.

slim and shady
05-28-2009, 08:26 PM
Cant sleep AGAIN. Starting to think I may have a more serious problem relating to this.

Hoppy11
05-29-2009, 07:01 AM
I'm single.

paintballkid0206
05-29-2009, 03:52 PM
thought about cutting this morning, but i was on the bus...

slim and shady
05-29-2009, 08:37 PM
SOOOOOO tired, so much to do.

UKwithPride
05-30-2009, 01:49 AM
not mad, just sad.
I placed an order at mpex.com last friday, the 22nd, and it was just shipped on thursday, the 28th. Nothing wrong with them as they are totally cool over there! Just want my stuff! haha

paintballkid0206
05-30-2009, 01:30 PM
my book is making me mad... (lol)

DFSniper
05-30-2009, 02:15 PM
i maxed out my flickr uploads for the month.... sorry guys, you'll have to wait 2 days for new pb pics.

slim and shady
05-30-2009, 04:35 PM
This guy barrowed a few winch straps yesterday when he took a order of lumber and is supposed to bring them back today. STILL waiting and I need them monday.

HelpDeskHustler
05-30-2009, 04:48 PM
texted my girlfriend to say "i'll come over and cheer you up" didn't realize t9/word could screw up that badly.

marvin-martian
05-30-2009, 04:56 PM
texted my girlfriend to say "i'll come over and cheer you up" didn't realize t9/word could screw up that badly.

??

slim and shady
05-30-2009, 06:56 PM
Friend of mine just had to go to the hospital again, ambulance came and picked him up. Has cronic lung diseis of some sort. Things dont look good.

xsvly-fat
05-31-2009, 07:38 PM
texted my girlfriend to say "i'll come over and cheer you up" didn't realize t9/word could screw up that badly.

I had to check what you said... Wow that is really bad, I am so sorry. Kinda funny but pretty bad.

TheDarkShadow
05-31-2009, 08:07 PM
??
cheer = aides until you change the word

slim and shady
05-31-2009, 08:19 PM
My friend is getting worse as he now got nemonia on top of the lung desies not looking good at all :(

paintballkid0206
06-01-2009, 02:11 PM
texted my girlfriend to say "i'll come over and cheer you up" didn't realize t9/word could screw up that badly.

oh geeze.. that can lead to an awkward conversation, but its funny. lol sorry.

now for my flame thereapy: I hate this addiction. well, sorta. I guess its a love-hate relationship. but, yea. I did it again last night. Not as bad as usual tho. I dont know why...

slim and shady
06-01-2009, 05:15 PM
Everyone at the yard (where I work) is called out on fire's and im the only one there. There is so much to do and not much time to do it, and I, have to do it all. :flame:

marvin-martian
06-01-2009, 05:57 PM
i was throwing a vortex in a field today with 2 friends (im pretty sure were the only 20 year olds who still do this), and 2 of us were barefoot. somehow one of them got a bee stinger in the bottom of his foot around the heel, and then not even 5 minutes later im running and get one on the bottom of my pinky toe in between the 2 pads. first time in my life to get a bee sting, and it was stupid and painful. i couldnt walk right for the next hour

DFSniper
06-01-2009, 06:02 PM
please tell me it was the whistling kind!

gah, so bored.

marvin-martian
06-01-2009, 06:18 PM
oh course it whistles. the only kind that matters

DFSniper
06-01-2009, 06:24 PM
good. just checking.

marvin-martian
06-01-2009, 07:19 PM
im pretty sure theres something else wrong with my foot. the top of my foot in the area i got stung is still sore, and its red and slightly puffy. its been like 6 hours since it happened

bigred76
06-01-2009, 10:07 PM
Call a doctor. You might be allergic.

TheDarkShadow
06-02-2009, 09:19 AM
Im not a fan of windows 8

marvin-martian
06-02-2009, 09:32 AM
next day and nothings changed. still red and slightly puffy and sore.

DFSniper
06-02-2009, 12:13 PM
Im not a fan of windows 8

lolwut? you has inside scoop?

TheDarkShadow
06-02-2009, 01:18 PM
whoops, I mean internet explorer 8, not windows 8

DFSniper
06-02-2009, 01:47 PM
lol.

thats why i stick to firefox.

paintballkid0206
06-02-2009, 05:47 PM
honestly, I'm sick of life. I'm on this stupid emotional roller coaster. Not just with my love life, but with everything. I have these stupid mood swings and I'm just sick of it. One moment, I'll be all happy, and the next moment, triggered by something really small, I am extremely angry and i need to cut, otherwise I will blow up at someone. Sometimes, this thread is the only thing that keeps me from doing either of those. And I can't even tell all my friends this, cuz most of them wouldnt understand...

and... then there's the love life. It is EXTREMELY hard not to be with this girl. we're still quite affectionate towards eachother, but idk if that's a good thing or a bad thing. We still give hugs n such, and holy sh*t... today she gave me this hug, and i think my heart might've stopped. just for a quick moment, right before it decided to try to burst out of my chest. UGH! its like (idk if anyone here would know) the book Twilight, but with another twist. UGH!!!!

DFSniper
06-02-2009, 06:01 PM
emotional mood swings suck. i get em all the time, and this ****ty job doesnt make it better. plus my parents are getting on my case about me moving out and my planning vs. their idea of planning... and how i havent applied for a college transfer application. and now my friend wont call me back about apartment hunting, and a whole lot of other ****.

believe me, youre not the only one.

ferret15
06-02-2009, 06:51 PM
you know sometimes i really wonder if the whole reason we are here is to learn to control emotion. Its one of those things that has a play in everything we do and people basically need to chill out. but in that same sentence if you don't get upset or afraid nothing will ever get done.

my flame is on myself for being a lazy punk right now

paintballkid0206
06-02-2009, 07:03 PM
you know sometimes i really wonder if the whole reason we are here is to learn to control emotion. Its one of those things that has a play in everything we do and people basically need to chill out. but in that same sentence if you don't get upset or afraid nothing will ever get done.


true... but emotions are things that are EXTREMELY hard to control. And I know I will never be able to do that.

ferret15
06-02-2009, 07:09 PM
XP very much so but i wouldn't havent' anyother way

slim and shady
06-02-2009, 09:06 PM
My sister inlaw and here no good for anything husband are having trouble again, just seems like it never ends.

DFSniper
06-03-2009, 07:02 PM
****ing Steam. i bought Assassin's Creed today then spent half the day trying to get ANY of my games to run... i even reinstalled Steam itself and it didnt fix it. pisses me off!

slim and shady
06-03-2009, 09:14 PM
Had a horrible day at work, its always a bad day when you have to do other peoples work.

paintballkid0206
06-04-2009, 01:29 PM
I've been on the verge of tears ever since lunch hour today...

xsvly-fat
06-04-2009, 08:46 PM
I've been on the verge of tears ever since lunch hour today...

Girls?

I got a really bad hair cut today... I looks so gay.

slim and shady
06-05-2009, 10:35 AM
^LOL

Raining today so I cant continue work on my shed or other outside projects.

xsvly-fat
06-05-2009, 01:18 PM
Yeah and it gets worse I paid $15 for the first hair cut then I went in today to try to get it fixed and I got charged $20 more dollars for pretty much nothing. Thank God for hair gel lol.

paintballkid0206
06-05-2009, 02:58 PM
Girls?

Mainly. It's the same girl. i still love her. but she is all "cuddly" with one of our friends @ lunch all the time. its really gettin to me. sometimes i have to move and find a different place to sit so they dnt see whats wrong. i cnt take it anymore... and i'm reading the 2nd twilight book, and its quite depressing in the beginning, but its EXACTLY how i feel...

TheDarkShadow
06-06-2009, 03:12 PM
home on a saturday night, there is nothing to do in Indiana

paintballkid0206
06-06-2009, 06:36 PM
fishing was terrible. 4 hours, 16 keepers. got some Pumpkinseeds, and a few Bluegills. and a few tiny Perch, but we threw them back. the gud thing is, i out-fished my bro/grandpa combined.

pntballer5634
06-07-2009, 07:39 AM
i haven't been here in a week, so excuse me of i missed something, but ask this girl out bro

bigred76
06-07-2009, 11:14 AM
I lol'd when I read you caught pumpkinseed's. I had no clue there was a fish called that, haha.

Well, you can ask her out or find another, PBKid. There are a ton of fish in the sea. There might just be one at the school that you're going to that you have overlooked, or one outside of school. Trust me, there are other girls out there, and even if this one doesn't work out, you have quite literally a million more chances.

paintballkid0206
06-07-2009, 12:27 PM
pntballer: ok, so i honestly think i might truely love her. she says she still likes me, but it sure doesnt seem like it. shes changing schools next year because her guardians think that is best... for her. anyway, when i ask her why we cant be together, she says its cuz she doesnt know how she could deal with not seeing me everyday...

red: pumpkinseeds are a lot like bluegills, but on the gill flap, theres a little orange dot, and a big black one. and their bellys are more orange and they have a striped face, sorta. and about the girl thing: its really hard to move on. and even if I did, quite literally, NOONE likes me in my school, and I dont blame them. and outside the school, I've tried relationships with girls that live in other places. but they never seem to work out. and i know, if i move on, that eventually i would find someone. i know i have PLENTY of time to find someone. i've tried. after me n this girl broke up i tried moving on. i found another girl. we were going to date, but I couldnt do it. its just so... GRR.

Hoppy11
06-07-2009, 03:43 PM
School changed my email password and didn't tell me that they were changing it or what they were changing it too...

bushballsniper
06-07-2009, 05:43 PM
i absolutly hate how we go out to play some paintball and my frickin gun wont shoot or nothin so i woulda been screwed if im runnin at someone and my gun wount shoot woulda got owned

TheDarkShadow
06-07-2009, 05:54 PM
needs some help with that?

slim and shady
06-07-2009, 08:43 PM
well I had to put down my dog today. Thats no easy thing to do, like shooting your best friend. I have hunted all my life, well before I was even legaly allowed to, never thought shooting an animal would bother me. It's different when its an animal that has bein by your side for years. I couldnt even bring myself to do it. I had to call a friend to come take him. I never had much of a choice, he attacked my 22 month old son today, who is currently getting stitches. It was compleatly out of charecter, he was a dog who was always around kids and was really good with them. I never would have expected such a thing, and so I did what had to be done.

TheDarkShadow
06-08-2009, 05:42 AM
wow, that had to be a really hard thing to do

paintballkid0206
06-08-2009, 03:38 PM
everything was so distant today. like i knew what was going on, but it was blurred. everything was. it was weird, but not in a bad way. its like the emotional numbness i've wanted, waited for for 2 months is slowly making its way to me...

Hoppy11
06-08-2009, 07:48 PM
Wow girls are just absolutely amazing. Apparently I went as low as I could because I had thought about leaving my previous gf for like a week but still tried to talk everything out with her before I made my decision but she can start dating already again after it barely being a week and a half since I break up with her and say that she is happier than ever and basically in love... Tell me that something wasn't going on while we were going out. And I am a shallow person...

ferret15
06-08-2009, 07:56 PM
nah man, she was a hooker if it what you say is true. I wouldn't dwell on it man.

marvin-martian
06-08-2009, 08:28 PM
Wow girls are just absolutely amazing. Apparently I went as low as I could because I had thought about leaving my previous gf for like a week but still tried to talk everything out with her before I made my decision but she can start dating already again after it barely being a week and a half since I break up with her and say that she is happier than ever and basically in love... Tell me that something wasn't going on while we were going out. And I am a shallow person...

dude. i was with my ex for a year, and in all that time she claimed to want to live for God and not have sex. i respected her wishes and never pushed it. within 2-3 weeks of our breakup she finds some guy to cling on to and screw. hooray women!

Hoppy11
06-09-2009, 07:47 AM
nah man, she was a hooker if it what you say is true. I wouldn't dwell on it man.

I'm not dwelling on it... lol trust me. It just blows my mind she could say the things she would say and act the way she did around me and then that.. lol. Whatever there are a lot of fish in the sea!

DFSniper
06-09-2009, 11:32 AM
yep. time to pull the boat out and go fishin'!

paintballkid0206
06-09-2009, 04:18 PM
"You'll move on. It will be like I was never there." Bull s***. That was a text 'the girl' sent me today. Ok, eventually, I might move on. eventually. but dammit i wont forget her. at least not soon, like she thinks I will. Not soon at all...

DFSniper
06-09-2009, 05:21 PM
dude. girl i've worked with for a year and a half broke up with her douchebag boyfriend, got back together with him, almost broke up with him again, had a kid, got married, and im STILL trying to get over her, but its slowly working. i know i'm stuck in the eternal friend zone, but im coming to terms with that.

paintballkid0206
06-09-2009, 05:40 PM
oh wow... ok so...

I have given myself a lot of time to think lately. here's what I've come up with... It's not that I don't want to move on. there's a part of me that does, and also a part of me that doesn't. It's not that fact. I realized that tonight. And I found out the real thing that is holding me back. THe truth is, I'm terrified. I'm terrified of losing her. Of losing her memory. Of losing any chance that I have to get back with her as a result of finding someone new...

TheDarkShadow
06-09-2009, 05:55 PM
dude, you just gotta move on, you can create new and better memories with someone else, and she doesnt want to be with you, so you might as well just move on, and after that, whatever happens, happens (as far as getting beack with her)

DFSniper
06-09-2009, 05:56 PM
the fear of losing someone you care about is one of the worst feelings out there. but i think your last line is where you answered yourself. if you find someone new, you'll be happy and get over her. and if things don't work out, the possibility is still there.

paintballkid0206
06-09-2009, 07:33 PM
and she doesnt want to be with you
I dont think i ever said that. last time her and I talked about this, she said she still wanted me...

DF..., I like the way you put things. thanks a lot for the good advice. It seems like u understand it, and put that into words that are easier on someone that's hurting and such. and thanks to everyone else in this thread, i know you all have helped me so much. I know like every other post in here is mine. and thanks for puttin up with me. but back to the problem at hand...

I think you're right DF. step 1: find someone. but i know I need a little time before i go "fishin'" again. and there are always more problems... 1) I doubt I could get a relationship this summer. specially cuz my parents like to keep me at home and mayb let me do something with friends 1 or MAYBE 2 days a week. plus they want me home all day so i can watch my brother. even tho he's in 6th grade! and 2) I know of no one who would like me anyway. and i'm sort of... shy.

Hoppy11
06-09-2009, 07:36 PM
Never to early to go fishin' again haha..


Disclaimer: If you listen to my advice with girl advice, you will probably live a very interesting mostly fun F'd up life with your relationships with girls. You will also probably experience some very interesting and new things in life and watch things get so twisted and messed up in ways you never thought possible. But it will always be interesting and you only live once. :smirk: lol

TheRedBarron
06-09-2009, 07:39 PM
Disclaimer: If you listen to my advice with girl advice, you will probably live a very interesting mostly fun F'd up life with your relationships with girls. You will also probably experience some very interesting and new things in life and watch things get so twisted and messed up in ways you never thought possible. But it will always be interesting and you only live once. :smirk: lol

:yeahthat:

DFSniper
06-09-2009, 08:19 PM
I dont think i ever said that. last time her and I talked about this, she said she still wanted me...

DF..., I like the way you put things. thanks a lot for the good advice. It seems like u understand it, and put that into words that are easier on someone that's hurting and such. and thanks to everyone else in this thread, i know you all have helped me so much. I know like every other post in here is mine. and thanks for puttin up with me. but back to the problem at hand...

I think you're right DF. step 1: find someone. but i know I need a little time before i go "fishin'" again. and there are always more problems... 1) I doubt I could get a relationship this summer. specially cuz my parents like to keep me at home and mayb let me do something with friends 1 or MAYBE 2 days a week. plus they want me home all day so i can watch my brother. even tho he's in 6th grade! and 2) I know of no one who would like me anyway. and i'm sort of... shy.
no problem. i know exactly where you're coming from, and i have all the answers, but its hard to put it into words -- its one of those things you have to figure out yourself before it really makes sense.

and you dont have to be shy, just take that first step and talk to a girl. im one of the most un-social people i know, but when i get to know a girl, it all goes away (granted thats usually when i find out they're in serious relationships :p).

TheDarkShadow
06-10-2009, 05:10 AM
I dont think i ever said that. last time her and I talked about this, she said she still wanted me....

I misunderstood, the part about when she said "It will be like I was never there" and I know what it's like to be anti-social

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:00 PM
k, paintball kid, im gna seem like a ****, but this is what you need.
1. she don't like u, she doesn't wana hurt your feelings
2. move on, she's prob a ***** anyways
3. bro, u can get other girls, just start a rumor that u have a huge ****
4. wen life gets me down, i get high lol.( pot is no worse than the ritalin im on for adhd)
5. be strait up, yo ho, i gotta know if u wana do this thing or not.
6. dnt feel bad, its just a girl
7. dnt get mad at me for saying this, u need it
8. mods, can i get banned for what i jst said?
9. good luck
10. MOVE ON MOVE ON MOVE ON MOVE ON
sry is had to be like this bro.

paintballkid0206
06-10-2009, 01:09 PM
k, paintball kid, im gna seem like a ****, but this is what you need.
1. she don't like u, she doesn't wana hurt your feelings
i KNOW she likes me. trust me there
2. move on, she's prob a ***** anyways
she is not
3. bro, u can get other girls, just start a rumor that u have a huge ****
wow... that's not how I want to get a girlfriend.
4. wen life gets me down, i get high lol.( pot is no worse than the ritalin im on for adhd)
again, wow...
5. be strait up, yo ho, i gotta know if u wana do this thing or not.
Even tho she likes me, ik she doesnt think we shuld date
6. dnt feel bad, its just a girl
i have nothing much to say to this, other than she's not just a girl to me
7. dnt get mad at me for saying this, u need it
Not getting mad...
8. mods, can i get banned for what i jst said?
9. good luck
thanks
10. MOVE ON MOVE ON MOVE ON MOVE ON
sry is had to be like this bro.

My answers r in red

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:14 PM
lemme make a lil rap for u
yo paintball kid, get some mids
smoke that **** like i told u i did
tell that ho, you got to know, be like ***** make it fast , dnt be slow
what yo , move on, dnt hang around like a mor on,
tell that ***** to go away, **** some chick some other day,
go to school, play it cool, and then say, yo i got a ten
go order extenze, see what happens then, then join the ranks of the big men
what what, make some noise, mc chris in da house
whoop whoop
mods dnt ban me,im part of the family,
i tried to help, do my best
so gimme another chance, a final test
cause bro i aint a pest

sry kid to be mean, but i gotta spell it out, so you know what it's about, im not a ****, not tryin to be a prick, but i dnt want u to wind up sick

paintballkid0206
06-10-2009, 01:25 PM
and i hold my tongue... (ps- im a country boy. and some rock...)

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:26 PM
move oooooooooon dr dr duhhh chucka drrrrrr dr dr du, move ooooooooooon

or,
du du du, im a christian from texas, dududu, and i like a girl, doody du, but she dnt like me duddu dudu duuuu, and i gotta move on

UKwithPride
06-10-2009, 01:35 PM
wtf did this thread turn into? The bad rap thread. Don't listen to that guy, he sounds like a MORON.

To stay on topic, I want a new job. Or a different position than the one I'm at now. I work at target and all i do every day is zone, or facing what some might call it. I make the aisles look straight and clean. I'm sick of it so I think I'm going to talk to HR about being moved to Guest Service. The GSTL (Guest Service Team Lead) already mentioned I would do great up there but told me to talk to HR to try to get things moving.

bigred76
06-10-2009, 01:36 PM
The things that come to mind when I opened this thread were quite vulgar, but boil down to this single word: "WUT?????????"

PBKid, I'm not going to tell you to go for this girl, nor am I going to tell you to not. That's up to you, and even though I know exactly what I'd do and why. Just do what you want, but be careful in the way you do it and remember: you have to be persistent, but not overly persistent. You want her to know you want her, but you don't want to be a nuisance.


Good luck, Dan. Deff move on from "zoning." That would just drive me nuts.

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:38 PM
hey, i was jst tryin to tell him in a humorous and non confrontational way. and yo, uk, u wana rap battle, you tell me gangsta, otherwise, dnt be talkin smack bro. jk, but is was on topic

paintballkid0206
06-10-2009, 01:42 PM
yea, i get what u mean Red. the problem is, what I want to do, and what i should do (to save my emotional health)... well, they're totally opposite. and about persistance, i think i've got it down. ive been working on that

edit: but is was on topic

somewhat. lol

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:43 PM
ok, u gotta find a new girl to go afta

bigred76
06-10-2009, 01:49 PM
Then choose. The girl or your mental stability. You obviously can't have both at this point.

pntballer5634
06-10-2009, 01:52 PM
( mental stability is a good idea)
and it may have been a LIL of toppic, but i didnt wana be like
(in monotone) blah blah, im boring, blah blah blah, how does that make you feel blah blah blah

bigred76
06-10-2009, 02:53 PM
Lol, monotony in a relationship is sometimes best. You need to be sensitive to both parties, no matter how you feel about either. The main key in a relationship is that it is up to the people in the relationship, and not us. We cannot act as a Hand of God and change their opinions of each other.

DFSniper
06-10-2009, 04:41 PM
so, ive come up with a new term for working. zombie mode. its so repetitive i could do it in my sleep. so when you see my new away message, you'll know where i'm at.

paintballkid0206
06-10-2009, 07:12 PM
Then choose. The girl or your mental stability. You obviously can't have both at this point.

I hate that choice!!! i hate relationships. period. but i love them at the same time.... hmmm... i honestly think there's something wrong with me...

I lost a 'friend' today. we got in a fight cuz apparently im just a ****ing idiot and i never listen to any advice she gives and im just a stubborn ****. (i will admit i am being somewhat stubborn and difficult) but whatever! im just gonna give up. im no longer going to care how life goes. I'll just give in to the current of life andd it can take me wherever the **** it wants. and if it takes me to a swirling whirpool of misery, so be it. if it takes me to someone new, i will live. if it takes me to a nude beach in hawaii.... **** yea!

slim and shady
06-10-2009, 07:26 PM
My advice would be to relax. Your still in school **** life hasnt even really started yet. In my experience you never find yourself until your out of school away from how your supposed to act or what is cool. You have a long life left ahead of you dont sweat the little ****. I can guarentee you life will go on.

DFSniper
06-11-2009, 01:53 PM
i agree. people call me lazy. no, i just realized that its not worth stressing out over every little thing like my mom does, so i just sit back and let things flow (beware procrastination though!)

bigred76
06-11-2009, 02:43 PM
I'm tired of that too, Sascha. I'm also tired of math. When simple **** works, why must we go complex? People are just ****ING DUMB.

marvin-martian
06-11-2009, 02:47 PM
i agree. people call me lazy. no, i just realized that its not worth stressing out over every little thing like my mom does, so i just sit back and let things flow (beware procrastination though!)

oh man, this is so me. its so hard to get me actually bothered. i just let things roll on and off and wonder how people blow up stupid crap into big deals. its just "whatever, thats stupid. stop getting so worked up"

paintballkid0206
06-11-2009, 04:47 PM
(beware procrastination though!)

Already got sucked into that... lol

interceptorMR2
06-11-2009, 08:08 PM
Ugh... finals tomorrow. We're doing a congressional hearing for ap government... whoo.....hoo....

paintballkid0206
06-13-2009, 10:44 AM
I'm sick of being the problem child. so my dad said we have to work on stuff tomorrow. so i asked what we had to do. and he turns and looks at me like im a ****ing dumb***, and i culd tell, under his sunglasses, he was glaring at me. WHAT THE **** DID I DO?! one of the many disadvantages of having a cop dad. he treats u like an inmate. and me and my bro always fight. i cant believe i havent attempted to beat the living **** out of him yet. im sick of it! grrr. oh! and i never do anything right either. of course not! and yesterday was the last day that that girl will b going to school with us. it was a hard day. i was holding back tears the whole time. especially last block, and after school, with the goodbye hug..

and im sick of these mood swings. sometimes i feel like I'm starting to get over it, and the next day it seems like life is a living h*ll. 1 step forward, 1 step back.

Y Necesito un trabajo! Quiero jugar paintball y trabajar con mi MR1. Pero no puedo hallar un trabajo. Es muy dificil. Me gusta espanol!

xsvly-fat
06-15-2009, 11:38 AM
Hate girls. I was texting this girl who I like and she said that she doesn't want a serious relationship right now then she tells me liked me last week and was going to find a way to get me to ask her out but now that I got my hair cut (it does look kinda funny) she doesn't wanna go out with me and is saying things may change in a month or so, even when that happens I don't know if I'm going to wanna put up with this crap anymore.

DFSniper
06-15-2009, 12:45 PM
i wouldnt.

ferret15
06-15-2009, 02:50 PM
:facepalm: some people need to learn to brush up on there manuals and learn to ask questions before they do anything.

xsvly-fat
06-15-2009, 08:24 PM
i wouldnt.

Well we've known each other for like a year and a half and I've liked her for most of the time that I've known her so it will be kinda hard to just give her up but then again I really don't want anymore drama.

paintballkid0206
06-16-2009, 07:31 AM
So... sore. Hurts... to move. Hate... weight lifting.

TheDarkShadow
06-16-2009, 10:32 AM
Well we've known each other for like a year and a half and I've liked her for most of the time that I've known her so it will be kinda hard to just give her up but then again I really don't want anymore drama.

if she doesnt wanna go out with you over a haircut (that's what I understood from your previous statement) then you need to find someone less shallow

ferret15
06-16-2009, 11:10 AM
So... sore. Hurts... to move. Hate... weight lifting.

eff weight lifting the only good that does you is help you stay some shape. Join a MMA, or kickboxing gym, you get one hell of a workout even with out making contact and you at least can defend yourself if need be. Weights just make you a bigger slower target.

edit: and about the girl.. ya my advice would be very inappropriate so do what shadow suggest.

LostCause
06-16-2009, 11:58 AM
weightlifting is a great Supplement to whatever your doing, but like Ferret said one of those gyms would help out waaayyyy more, also look up Crossfit, killer workouts....

DFSniper
06-16-2009, 12:36 PM
driver's side headlight is out. gonna have to write up a to-do list for tomorrow...

xsvly-fat
06-16-2009, 04:32 PM
if she doesnt wanna go out with you over a haircut (that's what I understood from your previous statement) then you need to find someone less shallow

That's what I've gathered from it so yeah I'm going to try to just give her up and get on with life.

edit: and about the girl.. ya my advice would be very inappropriate so do what shadow suggest.

Do I even wanna ask...

paintballkid0206
06-16-2009, 04:35 PM
Well, for football this fall, the coaches like to see the players in the gym. when I go, it's not a buncha random lifts. we have a program. its called BFS (Bigger Faster Stronger). we warm up, do agility stuff, go lift, and them running/conditioning at the end. And my family and I do not have extra money to join a club of anything like that. This BFS program is all run thru the school, so its free.

Oh, and I HATE WRITERS BLOCK! i need to start writing more songs, but I can't think of anything. ugh.

TheDarkShadow
06-16-2009, 05:31 PM
I actually love weight lifting, I just don't wanna pay to go to a gym

LostCause
06-16-2009, 05:36 PM
Well, for football this fall, the coaches like to see the players in the gym. when I go, it's not a buncha random lifts. we have a program. its called BFS (Bigger Faster Stronger). we warm up, do agility stuff, go lift, and them running/conditioning at the end. And my family and I do not have extra money to join a club of anything like that. This BFS program is all run thru the school, so its free.

Oh, and I HATE WRITERS BLOCK! i need to start writing more songs, but I can't think of anything. ugh.

for real crossfit is a workout you do in thet Gym and done right will smoke ya faster then any football workout anyday. lol just go search it online lol

pntballer5634
06-18-2009, 06:50 AM
did someone say iron gym???

HelpDeskHustler
06-21-2009, 07:22 PM
shes gone.

ferret15
06-21-2009, 07:26 PM
shes gone.

sorry to hear that:(

xsvly-fat
06-21-2009, 08:28 PM
shes gone.

Girls suck. I can't stand them sometimes.

Hoppy11
06-22-2009, 05:20 PM
My boss just called me and told me that I have to be in at 5am tomorrow and not 6am which means I have to be up at 4am. This is going to suck...

DFSniper
06-22-2009, 06:18 PM
i hate those days. one day i didnt get to sleep til 2 and had to be up at 4:30. i was such an ass that the girl that does the schedules told me she'd never make me come in that early again.

paintballkid0206
06-22-2009, 07:32 PM
ugh. i'm getting a haircut tomorrow and i still dont know what i'm gonna do with it. i want something different. i used to get it pretty short, but now i want it a little bit longer. i was looking up hairstyles forl ike 2-3 hours today and i still couldnt find anything i wanted. this is difficult.

xsvly-fat
06-23-2009, 11:57 AM
My boss just called me and told me that I have to be in at 5am tomorrow and not 6am which means I have to be up at 4am. This is going to suck...

That's my new start time at work. Two days I start work at 2 p.m. and two days I start at 5 a.m. I hate it.

ugh. i'm getting a haircut tomorrow and i still dont know what i'm gonna do with it. i want something different. i used to get it pretty short, but now i want it a little bit longer. i was looking up hairstyles forl ike 2-3 hours today and i still couldnt find anything i wanted. this is difficult.

I always hate having to get my hair cut...

DFSniper
06-24-2009, 11:43 AM
i hate EA sometimes. sad thing is, ive had this problem so many times that i have it memorized how to fix it, but its not working.

xsvly-fat
06-24-2009, 12:21 PM
Was going to go swimming today but my friend hasn't called me back.

DFSniper
06-24-2009, 01:56 PM
apparently my parents went to see Transformers 2 without asking any of us if we wanted to go...

xsvly-fat
06-24-2009, 02:56 PM
I went to the midnight showing last night. It was very good. I'm probably going to go see it again.

Going to start working 5 days of the week instead of 4 :(

paintballkid0206
06-24-2009, 07:32 PM
now i have to wait to get my haircut til friday, i told my girlfriend about my screwed up-ness in my head, and eventually that lead to me telling her about cutting... and i culd tell she got upset.. and i ended up doing it again. ugh.

and my schedule SUCKS! whenevr i can do something, my gf cant. whenever she can, i cant! screw effing weightlifting, and f-ball camps, and passing league, appointments, and her job! GRRR. i was going to go to Transformers 2 with her n a few other people today, but i had a stupid football camp. *sigh*. dang it, i do complain a lot... ugh

also: I HATE THIS EFFING COMPUTER! almost no hard drive space, no new adobe flash player thing, so that means i cant do youtube, or is that cuz of the stupid jave script thing? idfk. facebook is constantly messed up, and i think it's just cuz of my stupid computer! i dont want to wait til xmas for a laptop. but i guess i gotta cuz my parents are buying me a letter jacket and a class ring this year..

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 12:39 AM
so guess who's getting ready for work.... this sucks...

bigred76
06-25-2009, 02:33 AM
also: I HATE THIS EFFING COMPUTER! almost no hard drive space, no new adobe flash player thing, so that means i cant do youtube, or is that cuz of the stupid jave script thing? idfk. facebook is constantly messed up, and i think it's just cuz of my stupid computer! i dont want to wait til xmas for a laptop. but i guess i gotta cuz my parents are buying me a letter jacket and a class ring this year..
I can help you here... Get a cheap 3.5" desktop hard drive or a 2.5" laptop hard drive and get a case that can fit it (EIDE and SATA are important denotations, I'd get SATA if at all possible). I believe 360gb or 500gb is around $50. Should run you less than $80 for the whole shabang. If need be I can make one for ya so long as you supply the material costs.

For the software, go here to update Java: http://www.java.com/en/download/index.jsp
Go here to update Flash: http://get.adobe.com/flashplayer/otherversions/

If you run into any issues shoot me a PM.

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 06:10 AM
Download flash? Takes like 2 minutes...

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 11:41 AM
ok, when i click a video for youtube, it says: Hello, you either have JavaScript turned off or an old version of Adobe's Flash Player. idk what the JaveScript thing is, or how to turn it on if i need to. and i know that i need the new flash player, but we only have exactly 724 MB of free space left on the Local Disk thing. idk how much room the new flash player will take up. and we dont have much money to spare to buy a new desktop hard drive.

bigred76
06-25-2009, 11:44 AM
If you have a bunch of blank CD's and a CD burner, go to town with non-essential items. Make sure to mark the disks before you forget what you put on them. What operating system are you running?

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 11:46 AM
operating system??? lol. i dont know much about computers. haha

no CDs, or CD burner

bigred76
06-25-2009, 11:48 AM
You aren't simple at all, are ya? LOL! Alright, when the computer is turned on, what does it say? Windows XP? Windows 2000? Windows ME?

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 11:50 AM
OH! thats what i thought you meant, but i wasnt sure. I believe it's Windows XP

ferret15
06-25-2009, 11:53 AM
so guess who's getting ready for work.... this sucks...

you crazy son of a gun, that post is way to early to get up. but not bad if you stayed up all night. which i don't think you did.

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 11:56 AM
i crashed at like 10. had to be there at 6 because i'm the only one that does **** around there and we had some of the big bosses come in and of course the managers wanted to impress everyone. so i spent 3 hours cleaning while our good-for-nothing maintenance man took his sweet time showing up. i swear there are brighter kids in Special Ed. classrooms...

bigred76
06-25-2009, 12:03 PM
Go to "My Computer", right click on the C drive, click properties on the dropdown. Click the "Tools" tab on the window that pops up, and defragment the hard drive.

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 12:09 PM
ok, i know we've defragmented before, i forgot how long it takes tho, and my dad is coming home from work soon and i wouldnt like me messing with the computer, so i'll just do that later tonight. if i defrag. it, do u think i will have enough room to download flash?

ferret15
06-25-2009, 12:15 PM
. i swear there are brighter kids in Special Ed. classrooms...

lol aint it the truth

bigred76
06-25-2009, 12:19 PM
Flash takes up 50mb, tops. You can also "Clean Up" your computer and get rid of temporary files and such. That's on the Properties Tab on the left.

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 12:19 PM
the install file for Flash 10 is only 1.79mb... if you dont have enough room to download that, your PC is pretty FUBAR.

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 12:29 PM
just deleted and moved most of the pics to my flash drive, up to 1.4 GB free space, i'll try to download flash tonight after my dad goes to bed. i have the onld flash players. would the upgrade for flash 10 only take up a little because i have the preexisting flash?

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 12:34 PM
http://get.adobe.com/flashplayer/

just download and install this and you're set. takes 2 minutes.

bigred76
06-25-2009, 12:42 PM
Lol, the days when pictures took up only a gigabite... I just cleared 30gb off this partition.

You can delete the installer after it's done it's course, just save it to the desktop so you can easily find it. It will delete the old Flash player install files as part of the installation process.

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 05:32 PM
ok, it says i have it installed. and youtube still isn't working. it must be something about JavaScript being turned off. now how do i turn it on?

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 05:57 PM
are you using firefox?

paintballkid0206
06-25-2009, 06:28 PM
internet explorer... 6 i believe. i don't have the new one.

DFSniper
06-25-2009, 06:45 PM
hmm. could be something in your settings. i dunno, i dont mess with IE.


so guess who gets to go in to work early AGAIN tomorrow morning!

ferret15
06-25-2009, 09:02 PM
uWhat the hell guys all you had to do was keeper your yappers shut like you normally do or change the subject. Was that really so hard? But no who has the best ****ing truck of this a few years ago that nobody here acually owns and argueing about how strong a frames is in circumstances nobody ****ing reaches.

Way to ****ing go I actually enjoy ready through that thread


And what the hell is that tech stuff doing in this thread make a new thread, pm, IM, email, whatever it takes but I though this is where we can ***** about stuff not geek it up

DFSniper
06-26-2009, 02:04 AM
go to bed :p

ferret15
06-26-2009, 04:52 AM
lol i did

anywho. So i get up and take a shower bright and early. Mostly because i forgot to take one yesterday and as it turns out my ****ing brother needs it in the morning now. I though it would be ok since he was asleep and normally he has been taking one like after 10pm... so yeah i get *****ed at for that =[

IMO if your waiting for the minute before you do whatever you need to do. You almost deserved to go screwed over.

DFSniper
06-26-2009, 07:10 AM
Hey, don't jinx me!

5 more hours of work. On the bright side, my stuff should be here when I get home!

RSX99
06-26-2009, 07:59 AM
I thought I was being civil in the driving thread...

paintballkid0206
06-26-2009, 08:02 AM
dog's mothering again, yay.

I am so effing confused. I hate teenage years. I feel like i still havent found out who i am. It's like almost everything about me isn't really me. this is bugging me so much. and my parents don't help at all. if i want something (ex clothes, hair, etc) and they dontl like it, then it wont happen. even if it is what i want. nobody knows me! i know that's the common teenage phrase, and it is way overused, but its true.

Still dont have much money, havent been able to get my parents to drive me out to the restaurant that i used to work @ to get an application. that means no paintball upgrades for awhile.

RSX99
06-26-2009, 08:10 AM
Holy **** kid, enjoy your teenage years. They're the best of your life! No real responsibilities.

paintballkid0206
06-26-2009, 08:13 AM
i know i should b enjoying them. the problem is, i think i might be depressed... (and i heard on the radio that in a poll of adults, most of them said their high school years werent the best of their life. just thought i'd throw that out there. lol)

ferret15
06-26-2009, 08:51 AM
I'm going out on a limb here and say that those who don't enjoy a certain part of life ie the teen year, they were not not doing something they enjoyed doing. But as far as teen years being the "best" your supposeed to say **** anyone who dissagrees with me and do just about anything you please to do. Or else you will not develop your own opinion and will just slowly become one of those people that don't do anything with their life. And remember that everyone has run into the same problem but we handle o
It a little differently

paintballkid0206
06-26-2009, 12:36 PM
But as far as teen years being the "best" your supposeed to say **** anyone who dissagrees with me and do just about anything you please to do.


so ur saying i should just do what i want no matter what anyone says? if so the main problem is: my parents. if they are against something, they will take no arguement from me, and if i do do something against their wishes, i get grounded for awhile.. i dont like being grounded! i cant live without my phone or computer! lol but... yea.

ferret15
06-26-2009, 12:46 PM
so ur saying i should just do what i want no matter what anyone says? if so the main problem is: my parents. if they are against something, they will take no arguement from me, and if i do do something against their wishes, i get grounded for awhile.. i dont like being grounded! i cant live without my phone or computer! lol but... yea.

Yeah pretty much. But let's start off by taking their arguement away. I would sum it up as live life for yourself. You may want to consider their advice. Now depending on how leanant or anal they are you may want to take a path of less resistance. Like get good grades in school since that is the only "job" you have. Or maybe you want to party, it's probably a good idea to hang out with some friends at odd hours and do things that they wouldn't dissaprove off like a late movie or something. Set yourself up for sucess so when the time comes you have the green light

paintballkid0206
06-26-2009, 12:55 PM
ok. well, i alrdy get good grades. i hate their advice, usually. especially about what job field i should go into. i dont party, never invited. late movie? yea right, like they wuld run me into town late at night. sorry for puttin a negative side on everything, but its true.

ferret15
06-26-2009, 02:59 PM
ok. well, i alrdy get good grades. i hate their advice, usually. especially about what job field i should go into. i dont party, never invited. late movie? yea right, like they wuld run me into town late at night. sorry for puttin a negative side on everything, but its true.
well if your goal is to somehow please your parents you will never do that, i would say the only way is if your happy with what you are doing so if all they ever want to talk about with you is your future, and that will be the case until your done with college, then pick something you like and when the conversation comes up have a plan. For instance I Loved cars for a long time so much so that i was taking college courses in HS to be a tech. Up until that point life was smooth sailing and i could have gotten away with just about anything, then one day i decided i didn't really want to work on cars and since my goals are in tatters, at least to them, i have to account for more of my actions. Would it have been easier just to continue to have gone to school for cars.. yes. But i'm one of those people that get away with the **** you attitude and i make what i want out of MY life.

Phew.. that was a mouth full your a real interesting character to talk to you know?

i dont party, never invited.

party is a relevant definition. While many people associate parting like a rockstar (sex,drugs, and rock & roll) as the standard definition. All a party is a group of friends hanging out for a extended period of time. IMO booze and weed is way more over rated and is the drug that many use to cope with their problems. In fact just the other weekend my friend had his graduation party and we pretend to play volley ball for most of the day and talked for the rest of the time. After it got dark it was the regular guys and gals that hang out anyway so we resorted to what we do when we normal hangout. ROCKBAND! This was probably the most fun i had in a while as far as parties go. I've got some other friends that when they party they drink from a golden cup and smoke the finest weed(song reference anybody?) I will say even though these friends are also really good friends the party was probably not as good with the influence of drugs. although i genuine enjoyed talking to old friends about cars, girls ect. around a big ass fire, no influence is really needed.

So Hang out with friends and if there lame You need to do something exciting.

late movie? yea right, ok so you don't drive but if your out with friends later at night obviously respecting "curfew" or working on your ninja skills, start a fire and hang out one weekend. Hell invite your parents and i guarantee they will get bored before you do. I know we did and guess what they ALWAYS bought us food for the fire.


You can look at the glass as half full, or you can look at as half empty. While your deciding which it is i got thirsty and drank the water

paintballkid0206
06-26-2009, 04:38 PM
there was so much there, i dont know how to reply to it all. lol. um...
i get what you're talkin about with the whole future stuff. my dad's a cop, and i was thinking about going into law enforcement, but they are strongly against that, (very hypocritical if u ask me)

about partying: i wont ruin stuff by gettin high/drunk. i'm not like that. neither are most of my friends. the problem is, i'm a 'loner'. i dont have a definate group of friends. in fact, because i'm sort of a loner, i dont have too many good friends at all. and most of my friends are from different 'groups'. so if i had a party or something, idk if i wuld invite all of them. and i love bonfires and stuff. that's usually what i like to do when i party. bonfire, stay up all night playin videogames, etc. i'm just never, im sorry, rarely invited to other parties.

i dont know what else i have to reply to, so if i forgot something, and u wanna hear a response from me, just tell me.

(ps- i know i'm very interesting to talk to. i'm a complicated individual. lol)

DFSniper
06-26-2009, 06:13 PM
so, to jump in:

i loved my high school years just because everything was no-worries. but i do regret all the bull**** i put up with, but i think it made me a better person for it.

bigred76
06-27-2009, 01:44 AM
I miss the easy goings of high-school....

Weed's overrated, but kickin' back with a beer with friends is good times.

Side Note: As a responsible adult, I do not condone minors or those not of legal age consuming alcohol. Veterans can laugh at this time if they so choose.

TheDarkShadow
06-28-2009, 05:21 AM
...long night of camping out w/ some freinds has got me feelin like ****

xsvly-fat
06-28-2009, 10:04 AM
Had to work for 13 hours yesterday with only 3 and 1/2 hours of sleep the night before.

DFSniper
06-28-2009, 12:44 PM
couldnt get today off to play at pump day, then i had to stay an extra hour at work because of all the idiots that work there.

marvin-martian
06-28-2009, 12:49 PM
Screw Brazil

paintballkid0206
06-28-2009, 01:28 PM
stupid computer. wont let me log into facebook, is being extremely slow, even tho i cleared 300+ pictures off of it, making the total free mem. on the hard drive 1.67 GB. that's the highest it's been in awhile, and its still slower!

DFSniper
06-28-2009, 01:54 PM
wow... how big is the drive?

paintballkid0206
06-28-2009, 06:50 PM
19 Gb

DFSniper
06-28-2009, 07:07 PM
ah. that explains it. my mom had 19gb of just installed files on her old PC.

paintballkid0206
06-28-2009, 08:26 PM
yea, it sucks.
i'm debating on whether or not to tell my parents about my cutting a self-diagnosed depression... i'm actually wanting to get help now. but we cant afford to go to a professional. i was thinking about telling them this week, but we are camping and 4wheeling this weekend and i dont want to ruin it for them. and i havent cut in like... 4 or 5 days, so idk...

ferret15
06-28-2009, 10:43 PM
i'm actually wanting to get help now. but we cant afford to go to a professional. i was thinking about telling them this week, and i havent cut in like... 4 or 5 days, so idk...

Help is always good, often times there are self help groups if your serious about seeking out help.If your happy and in tip top shape, I would say ride it out through the fun and unless your about to slip up wait untill You have time and feel like it.

From my understanding you need to change something in your life to break the habit. So if you feel the need pic something that will help change and set different habits and patterns in your life that are good. Like if your thinking about it do 50 pushups or something stupid to get your mind off it. That way you're replacing your bad habit with a good one and exercise releases dopamine iirc. So you WILL feel better afterwords so long as you don't punk out.

Or maybe pick something like get up early and run or something to help get the good vibes flowing before your mind gets the chance to wander in to such a negative state.

paintballkid0206
06-29-2009, 08:55 AM
Help is always good, often times there are self help groups if your serious about seeking out help.If your happy and in tip top shape, I would say ride it out through the fun and unless your about to slip up wait untill You have time and feel like it.

From my understanding you need to change something in your life to break the habit. So if you feel the need pic something that will help change and set different habits and patterns in your life that are good. Like if your thinking about it do 50 pushups or something stupid to get your mind off it. That way you're replacing your bad habit with a good one and exercise releases dopamine iirc. So you WILL feel better afterwords so long as you don't punk out.

Or maybe pick something like get up early and run or something to help get the good vibes flowing before your mind gets the chance to wander in to such a negative state.


I havent thought about it much lately. The thing is, i'm stuck home all day with my brother. and he doesnt help at all. In fact, he makes it worse. He knows exactly what to do to tick me off and I think her purposely does it. And I have a hard time controlling my temper sometimes.

I do workout everyday, and sometimes it's really what gets me through. That's why I actually like weightlifting, and football stuff. when I'm in the weight room, or between the sidelines, everything is gone. All I think about is what my job is. But, I feel terrible afterwards because we lost every game last year (freshman- 0-7, Varsity- 0-9).

And I don't think I CAN get up early. lol.

I can really tell that I'm getting better. I don't think about doing it unless someone (usually my brother) ticks me off, or something really bad happens. I don't think I'm gonna mention it to my family, unless I do it again or something.

bigred76
06-29-2009, 12:50 PM
Family members can help, but I don't know about in this situation. Go into the school's counsellor. It's free of charge, and you get to skip classes sometimes.

speed
06-29-2009, 06:20 PM
i truly hate some kids at high school. My freshmen year i went out with a girl and it went to hell in a week. She claims i sheated on her with another gir,l i know buts it bull and she said i did someother crap. So for the rest of freshmen and half of sophomore year alot of girls wouldn't talk to me and then some of the guys rode my ass for going out with her. I'm going to be a junior and barely know the girls in my school and its only 200 kids in my class

I also hate how i have some friends but don't now myself. Every day i look at myself differently. Also how reading some of the posts made me feel a bit better wat a douche.

ferret15
06-29-2009, 06:50 PM
i don't now myself. Every day i look at myself differently.


Hell i barely recognize myself from a few months ago.

paintballkid0206
06-29-2009, 07:43 PM
I also hate how i have some friends but don't now myself.

I'm the same way. I have very few friends, and I don't even know who I am. It's tearing me apart. (If you havent noticed by the abundance and content of my posts in this thread)

Edit: now for my venting...
I feel terrible. I am still not completely over my last girlfriend. I've been thinking about her a lot lately. I was fine for awhile. we agreed to stop talking, that a clean break might be best, and it was...for awhile... until she emailed me the other day. she noticed that I had a girlfriend, and she said she was happy for me and all that. It made me remember how I think I actually love(d) her. And I feel terrible cuz I do have a girlfriend right now. and she doesnt deserve that. Noone deserves to put up with me. I'm so messed up in the head. I dont know how my gf can put up with it sometimes. I guess it's just because she doesn't know how bad I am. how sometimes I feel like breaking down. How I can't take any more pain. Like sometimes I have to lay down, because it seriously feels like theres a hole in my chest...

bigred76
06-30-2009, 12:25 AM
Oh, cut it out PBKid. You are who you are, and if it becomes too much for your girlfriend, she will let you know. Believe me. Just relax, enjoy what you can of High School, and get ready for your life in the real world. Get a job for this summer, for instance.

I almost died three times tonight from a big-rig hauling two trailers. I am PISSED. I called CHP, but I doubt they're going to nail this bastard unless he kills someone or wrecks himself. Tomorrow I'm calling FedEx corporate and filing a formal complaint, backing it up with the Police report. I want that ****er off the ****ing road.

DFSniper
06-30-2009, 02:08 AM
you can tell who comes from pbn by their bst thread titles...

VS2 King
06-30-2009, 06:17 AM
you can tell who comes from pbn by their bst thread titles...
:yeahthat:

TheDarkShadow
06-30-2009, 07:19 PM
i'm tired of being me, I lack self-confidence. I try to fill a void in my life w/anything. Is contentment too much to ask for?

xsvly-fat
07-01-2009, 05:46 PM
I've been up since 4 am and I've been working practically all day with only about 3 hours of break, and I have about 3 - 5 more hours of work to do...

xsvly-fat
07-03-2009, 11:25 PM
Work has been so crazy lately. If I'm not sleeping I'm working I work from 2 pm (or earlier like today) till 3 am with only about 5 hours of break spread out through the day so I can't really do much.

DFSniper
07-04-2009, 09:18 AM
i love leaks :dodgy:

pb34
07-07-2009, 03:28 PM
I have to miss my trip to Spain because of my sister's wedding with a guy who my family doesn't even like. AHHH THIS ****ING SUCKS!

DFSniper
07-07-2009, 04:19 PM
id say **** it, im going to spain.


grrr. jeff dunham tickets are $42.50 each.

pb34
07-07-2009, 04:22 PM
I've thought about that...but my sister would never talk to me again.

paintballkid0206
07-07-2009, 06:17 PM
I'm sick of my camera. it has a measly 3x optical (additional 3x digital) zoom, which is not enough for what i need. the multi-shot doesnt always work when i want it to, and it doesnt charge most of the time when i put it on the dock. also, i'm still trying to figure out the manual settings and i still havent got it down. even with the few settings it has. Ugh, I hate Kodak, I want a Canon.

And, i'm trying to get bettr with my photography. It has been very difficult with a crappy camera and nothin to take pictures of.

paintballkid0206
07-08-2009, 06:36 PM
grrr. jeff dunham tickets are $42.50 each.

Juff Dunham rocks.

now for my venting...
I'm getting really sick of my stupid dog. Her and this stupid mothering stage she is going thru. I hate that I can never hang out with anyone cuz of not having a job, or this or that. speaking of jobs, i called this place that i applied for. The lady that answered seemed like a b****. Kinda made me not want to work there.

edit: I slipped up again tonight... Maybe I should tell my parents...

bigred76
07-09-2009, 01:13 AM
You damn well should tell your parents. You tried to quit, and couldn't. The best thing to do at this point is to just tell them. It'll be hell, but at least you wont be doing it anymore... that is, unless they go overboard and buy a set of rubber steak knives.

Administrators in charge of hiring are going to be pissy. They have to deal with so many idiots going for one job, and then they have to find someone with enough intelligence to handle it. Don't worry about it, if it pays good and is a solid job, just be glad you have the opportunity. I wish the places I apply for would even just answer the ****in' phone.

DFSniper
07-09-2009, 05:31 AM
Tim, there's always mcdonalds.

Apeaking of which, I almost broke down this morning because I'm sick and tired of this place. About to put my two weeks in. School starta August 10.

pntballer5634
07-09-2009, 07:42 AM
lolol rubber knives. i was at my friends yesterday, he scored a 20 sac, i was stocked. well before doing anything with it, i just started to feel realy ****ty. so i layed down, well, i ran to the bathroom and puked like 6 or 7 times. i think it was a good thing cause the guys he was smoking it with got caught, and he barely got away.

bigred76
07-09-2009, 01:43 PM
If what I think you're saying is what you're saying: take it as a sign. Leave that **** alone.

DFSniper
07-09-2009, 01:53 PM
If what I think you're saying is what you're saying: take it as a sign. Leave that **** alone.

.

i cant stand people that do drugs, even if its "just" weed...

paintballkid0206
07-09-2009, 06:36 PM
I told my parents. well, i dont hav the courage to tell them in person, i left a note and a bookmarked page on the computer. my mom woke me up @ 6:30 to talk to me quick, and she sed her and my dad are gonna talk to me sometime today. (s***, they just called me up, mish me luck...)

And about jobs: I'm almost desperate enough to apply at mcdonalds..

bigred76
07-09-2009, 07:55 PM
Good enough, mate... We'll see, hopefully they can help you to stop. You really need to, and if it comes down to it like it has, and you just can't, they'll be there for you. Good luck!

paintballkid0206
07-10-2009, 09:13 AM
well, my dad got into the whole boredness vs. depression thing. im under the impression that he did not take much of what i sed seriously. i believe he thinks that i'm sad/mad cuz im bored and not cuz im depressed. And they called out Pastor, told me he wuld b down @ the church this morning. they said i should go. so this morning @ 9 i rode my bike down the road and talked to him. That kinda helped. talked about quite a few things. he says i'm an 'introvert'. that i keep to myself, and that i seem shy or secluded to people because i think everything thru before i speak and stuff. its kinda hard for me to explain. i guess he's got that right. it was a good talk. i'm going back next friday.

so in short... pastor gets it, parents not so much.

xsvly-fat
07-10-2009, 12:09 PM
I hate my friends sometimes. They want me to hang out with them and if I don't want to because I'm tired or want to hang out with other friends they get mad at me but when I do hang out with them all they do is give me crap about everything I do and say. I can't stand it.

DFSniper
07-10-2009, 12:31 PM
I hate my friends sometimes. They want me to hang out with them and if I don't want to because I'm tired or want to hang out with other friends they get mad at me but when I do hang out with them all they do is give me crap about everything I do and say. I can't stand it.

find new friends.

bigred76
07-10-2009, 01:28 PM
well, my dad got into the whole boredness vs. depression thing. im under the impression that he did not take much of what i sed seriously. i believe he thinks that i'm sad/mad cuz im bored and not cuz im depressed. And they called out Pastor, told me he wuld b down @ the church this morning. they said i should go. so this morning @ 9 i rode my bike down the road and talked to him. That kinda helped. talked about quite a few things. he says i'm an 'introvert'. that i keep to myself, and that i seem shy or secluded to people because i think everything thru before i speak and stuff. its kinda hard for me to explain. i guess he's got that right. it was a good talk. i'm going back next friday.

so in short... pastor gets it, parents not so much.

PBK, congrats. Good job, mate.

xsvly-fat
07-10-2009, 04:49 PM
find new friends.

Alot of my friends hang out with eachother so it would be kinda hard to just drop the few that do it. They were alot better today, I think they got the idea. Hopefully.

bigred76
07-10-2009, 04:50 PM
I HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE writing contracts. :flame:

timmyshoota
07-10-2009, 04:56 PM
Alot of my friends hang out with eachother so it would be kinda hard to just drop the few that do it. They were alot better today, I think they got the idea. Hopefully.

Drop all of them. Its easy to find new friends. Most of the people I hang out with I've known for less than 3 years. The people I've known all my life and was really good friends with, I hardly ever see.

paintballkid0206
07-11-2009, 05:38 AM
PBK, congrats. Good job, mate.

Thanks. I forgot to mention a few things to him, and one very important thing. the cutting. I think i might tell him on friday when i go. only cuz it's totally confidential. that's what I really like about it.

xsvly-fat
07-11-2009, 03:34 PM
Drop all of them. Its easy to find new friends. Most of the people I hang out with I've known for less than 3 years. The people I've known all my life and was really good friends with, I hardly ever see.

I might have too. I really don't want to but I'm tired of this crap.

Nader
07-11-2009, 05:21 PM
Need to find a new place to live on less than a month's notice. :mad:

DFSniper
07-11-2009, 06:28 PM
Ntldr is missing again. Meaning my computer won't load. ****!

slim and shady
07-11-2009, 08:01 PM
Need a new blade guid roller for my mill

buffblackbird2002
07-11-2009, 11:23 PM
damn i need to play some paintball, feeling deprived...no woods around here that is organized enough to play on.

DFSniper
07-12-2009, 07:33 AM
You're in ND, right? Ill be in fargo next month....hopefully

slim and shady
07-12-2009, 08:33 AM
Dont feel all that well at the moment

shunut
07-12-2009, 10:57 AM
I hate when people park behind you, when normally nobody parks behind you and you are in a hurry and don't notice they are parked there.......

buffblackbird2002
07-12-2009, 11:44 AM
You're in ND, right? Ill be in fargo next month....hopefully

no, SD, rapid city. its reball or speedball. and some unorganized woods that sometimes pop up, that i miss due to money or kids being a problem

paintballkid0206
07-12-2009, 12:21 PM
I hate when people park behind you, when normally nobody parks behind you and you are in a hurry and don't notice they are parked there.......

ooohhh dang.

marvin-martian
07-12-2009, 02:07 PM
I hate when people park behind you, when normally nobody parks behind you and you are in a hurry and don't notice they are parked there.......

uh oh.....

slim and shady
07-12-2009, 07:01 PM
Part never came in for my mill.

shunut
07-12-2009, 09:03 PM
ooohhh dang.

uh oh.....

Yup, not 1 but 2 cars now need new rear bumpers. About $1000 to get it fixed and that is just ordering the bumpers and me installing them.

DFSniper
07-13-2009, 06:39 AM
Wow $1000 for bumpers? What cars?

shunut
07-13-2009, 06:45 AM
My car = 07 Honda Civic Coupe
Dad's car = 06 Honda Odyssey

That price includes them being painted.

DFSniper
07-13-2009, 01:07 PM
ah, painted. yeah, that sounds about right then. it cost me $250 to get my bumper painted, and $125 for a bumper. OEM prices were 200-250.

slim and shady
07-13-2009, 02:43 PM
Got my mill fixed cant get ahold of the guy im going to saw for so I cant start today.

marvin-martian
07-14-2009, 05:37 AM
not really a flame, but...
protip: dont ask someone to hook you up with their sister.

xsvly-fat
07-14-2009, 09:29 AM
So yesterday at work one of the truck drivers forgot to put the e brake on one of the big diesel truck and it rolled down the hill, hit a car getting gas which hit another car and the diesel kept rolling and hit another car that hit the building and put a hole in it. THEN i went to deliver ice and our truck broke down and it took us an hour to fix it. It was a crappy day.

xsvly-fat
07-14-2009, 08:16 PM
One of my car speakers broke...

It seems like it's always just another thing =/

Nader
07-14-2009, 08:20 PM
Sometimes, serving tables is damn good money....
......sometimes the way people lie to my ****ing face just about makes me lose faith in humanity.

slim and shady
07-17-2009, 02:26 PM
Had to buy a new altenator for my mill, this buying parts seems like a nonstop prossess latly

paintballkid0206
07-17-2009, 08:12 PM
and they day was going so good.... until..
My brother lost 10 dollars, got upset, woke parents up to ask if they know where it is, they say no. he frantically searched the house making as much effing noise as possible, dad gets up, yells at him for being loud and tells him to get over it, brother gets more upset (now on the verge of tears), searches house again, gets more upset, i try to comfort/reason with him, starts crying and yelling at me. dad comes back out, yells louder and they get in arguement, brother still crying. almost all the while, I am in my room trying to calm down by using EFT. i hear more arguement, get more angry and crunch up my EFT procedure sheet, which i RLY RLY need. I was, but am no longer looking forward to tomorrow because I will be with my brother who i am still mad at cuz of how he treated me in the weightroom today, who is also going to b crabby.

i really needed to vent..

bigred76
07-17-2009, 10:08 PM
EFT? I don't know what that is.

Sorry to hear about it, but next time, just tell him to leave it until the morning when it is light enough to search properly. It's just $10.

My camera body failed on me for 10min right before I needed to shoot a wedding rehearsal. Luckily I got it working in time and I had a spare body, but I almost had a heart attack.

DFSniper
07-18-2009, 05:36 AM
i lost a pod. it wouldnt be a big deal if it were a 140rd, because i have plenty of those, but its a 100rd that fits in my 100rd harness ( not big enough for 140...) :(

paintballkid0206
07-18-2009, 06:28 AM
EFT? I don't know what that is.

Sorry to hear about it, but next time, just tell him to leave it until the morning when it is light enough to search properly. It's just $10.

EFT = Emotional Freedom Technique. It's like accupressure (which is sorta like accupuncture, but u just tap instead of stab). You tap different parts of the body and say what is bothering you. I learned it from my pastor when i went to talk to him yesterday. It's supposed to help deal with my anger/fear/sadness. and to help when I feel like cutting.

and i did tell him that. he i told him it was no big deal, but he said it is. he has more money than me right now! even with losing $10! that's sad...

xsvly-fat
07-18-2009, 09:38 AM
Worked for 18 hours yesterday, I didn't get to sleep till midnight and I had to wake up at 5 am. Also I hung out with my girlfriend on Tuesday I think and she hardly was talking to me then she broke up with me and said she just wants to be friends. Bleh.

DFSniper
07-18-2009, 03:18 PM
that sucks. thats why you find friends with benefits :p

slim and shady
07-18-2009, 04:36 PM
Really hot today that didnt make work any better.

marvin-martian
07-18-2009, 05:51 PM
sometimes i just feel inadequate compared to my friends.

TheDarkShadow
07-18-2009, 06:47 PM
Worked for 18 hours yesterday

that's more hours than i'm going to get in this week, grr